The Space Between - Dave Matthews Band

You cannot quit me so quickly
There's no hope in you for me
No corner you could squeeze me
But I got all the time for you, love

The Space Between
The tears we cry
Is the laughter keeps us coming back for more
The Space Between
The wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep safe from the pain

But will I hold you again?
These fickle, fuddled words confuse me
Like 'Will it rain today?'
Waste the hours with talking, talking
These twisted games we're playing

We're strange allies
With warring hearts
What wild-eyed beast you be
The Space Between
The wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep safe from the pain

Will I hold you again?
Will I hold...

Look at us spinning out in
The madness of a roller coaster
You know you went off like a devil
In a church in the middle of a crowded room
All we can do, my love
Is hope we don't take this ship down

The Space Between
Where you're smiling high
Is where you'll find me if I get to go
The Space Between
The bullets in our firefight
Is where I'll be hiding, waiting for you
The rain that falls
Splash in your heart
Ran like sadness down the window into...
The Space Between
Our wicked lies
Is where we hope to keep safe from pain

Take my hand
'Cause we're walking out of here
Oh, right out of here
Love is all we need here

The Space Between
What's wrong and right
Is where you'll find me hiding, waiting for you
The Space Between
Your heart and mine
Is the space we'll fill with time
The Space Between...

My heart bleeds.....

But it too shall pass.

The eternal question remains.....

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Without You....

Without You - RENT The Musical

Without you, the ground thaws
the rain falls
the grass grows

Without you, the seeds root
the flowers bloom
the children play

The stars gleam
the poets dream
the eagles fly
without you

The Earth turns
the sun burns
but I die, without you

Without you, the breeze warms
the girl smiles
the cloud moves

Without you, the tides change
the boys run
the oceans crash

The crowds roar
the days soar
the babies cry
without you

The moon glows
the river flows
but I die without you

The world revives
colors renew
but I know blue
only blue
lonely blue
willingly blue
Without you

Without you, the hand gropes
the ear hears
the pulse beats

Without you, the eyes gaze
the legs walk
the lungs breathe

The mind churns
the heart yearns
the tears dry without you

Life goes on
but I'm gone
'cause I die, without you
without you
without you
without you.....

Somebody Else

The other night, during a late night mamak session, a friend ased me this question a friend had asked him, that he had given quite serious thought about and found very interesting.

The question was - If you could be any man and any woman in the world right now, who would you be?

My friend then proceeded to launch into his narrowed down choices of who he'd want to be. My reaction? I was a tinge angry to be honest. I really have no idea why. Aside from why the heck would you ask this sort of question? And why the heck would I want to be anyone else but me??

I do realise of course, that I have been and have entertained such questions in the past. I just don't know why it irked me so much at this juncture. Perhaps there was a part of me which was insecure about being asked this, unconfident with what I was doing with my life or perhaps lack thereof. Or perhaps a part of me was reacting to some undistinguished spark of smugness or something I unknowingly am somehow most likely unjustifiably receiving from my financial analyst friend. I don't know.

But seriously, as I sat there, I just found myself thinking.....who else would I want to be but myself? I mean...not that my life is like super fantastic at the moment or anything but it was just like...my life. All the choices that I have made til this point have lead me here....and I'm absolutely happy with all of them. No regrets. This is who I am.

And really, it's just a question.....I mean people ask it all the time don't they? These hypethetical questions......who would you like to meet living or dead, etc. Right? Don't they?

I really have no idea why at that particular moment in time, and even to a certain extent right now, I find it rude. Goddess only knows why.......It still cheeses me off a bit....and really I don't think I have a reason to.

I mean it's just a hypethetical question.

Right?

Remember My Name, Fame!

Fame -Irene Cara



Baby look at me
And tell me what you see.
You ain't seen the best of me yet
Give me time, I'll make you forget the rest.
I got more in me, and you can set it free
I can catch the moon in my hand
Don't you know who I am?

Remember my name (Fame)
I'm gonna live forever
I'm gonna learn how to fly (High)
I feel it coming together
People will see me and die (Fame)
I'm gonna make it to heaven
Light up the sky like a flame (Fame)
I'm gonna live forever
Baby, remember my name
Remember, Remember, Remember, Remember,
Remember, Remember, Remember, Remember

Baby hold me tight
'Cause you can make it right.
You can shoot me straight to the top
Give me love and take all I got to give.
Baby I'll be tough
Too much is not enough, no
I can ride your heart till it breaks
You've got what it takes.

It's about the journey, Not the destination.

The Climb - Miley Cyrus



I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, but

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah

Note to self.....

Note to self.......try not to reject his invitation next time........

if there is a next time.......oh woe is me.....

but he always has crap timing!!

And so it is....

Right. So it's been yonks since my last real update.......

The simple wrap up would be: Back in KL, landed and just finished a Malay drama shoot, filmed short pilot with Boss-man, helping out with G&W, been hanging out a lot with techno entrepreneurs and have finally come to realise that.....I'm no longer suited to hanging out with young'uns.

Or so I think. I think it really depends on the person. Give me someone wise beyond their years, and humble too please, and we'll get on just fine. I just called someone childish....and got a look in return that said..and you would be? Which is true most of the time.......Oh I don't know. I jus suddenly feel wuite rotten for saying it......gawd knows....I am rotten tho. I mean don't get me wrong, I've got a mean rotten streak in me no questions about it. I suppose Chuck's not the only one in need of a "Beware my inner be-yatch" tee shirt.......

I wanna

I wanna stop wanting a Love Story........

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The Ideal "Love Story"

"Love Story" - Taylor Swift

We were both young, when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts-
I'm standing there, on a balcony in summer air.

I see the lights; see the party, the ball gowns.
I see you make your way through the crowd-
You say hello, little did I know...

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles-
And my daddy said "stay away from Juliet"-
And I was crying on the staircase-
begging you, "Please don't go..."
And I said...

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet, because we're dead if they knew-
So close your eyes... escape this town for a little while.
Oh, Oh.

Cause you were Romeo - I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said "stay away from Juliet" -
but you were everything to me-
I was begging you, "Please don't go"
And I said...

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes-

Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.
Oh, Oh.

I got tired of waiting.
Wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you was fading-
When I met you on the outskirts of town.
And I said...

Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting, for you but you never come.
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think-
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said...

Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad -- go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say... yes.
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh.

'cause we were both young when I first saw you

Hierarchical needs

I need to start doing pilates again.
I need to starting studying Japanese again.
I need to clean out the house.
I need a new oven to bake.
I need some soul in my life.
I need to start writing.
I need to do a theatrical production.
I need to get some nice flats (shoes).
I need to get some nice (sun) dresses.
I need to start doing clothes surgery.
I need to start working with felt again.
I need to drop by Singapore.
I need to go on a holiday. (But do I really?)
I need to read more.
I need to rest more.
I need to watch more (of my DVDs).
I need a new DVD player.
I need a pamper session.
I need.....

Letters to Andrew

if it wasn't for you
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

~Christina Aguilera

kisekae

Woohoo!!! Another toy camera to play with!!

Yesterday I just bought superheadz's kisekae camera. It's basically you uber basic average 35mm camera but it comes with a removable clear plastic front panel so you can add a sheet of whatever to customize it.......and here's what mine look like now....


I've just put in one of the 3 basic templates they've given you....and these are the other 2....


Just think of the possibilities...... @.@

Next target superheadz's blackbird, fly , their toy single reflex. YEA!

In other news.....I've started to kind of pack today. Mommy's coming over to left me lug stuff home tomorrow tho my flight isn't for another week. So we'll be hitting the town...haha...so to speak. Am realli quite looking forward to going home and getting my life in order and getting in touch with my world again and the possibilities that come with it. Can't wait to start acting, shooting, rehearsing and partying again......

See you back home!

Experiment......s

Right. So this year.....this my year to EXPERIMENT......I've just decided that. And I'll be experimenting with the idea of personas.....different personalities and alter egos.......

Have you ever wanted to be someone else for a day? I suppose the idea's occurred to everyone at one time or other. Heck why do you think I'm an actor? Well, you could call it an extreme form of escapism really. I mean you can, to a certain extent. For some. Perhaps even for me. Who wouldn't give their right arm to appear to have super powers? I would right away. Heck I'd give both arms to use the Force! yes major geekdom.

Right. So this year we experiment. This year. We mess with our own head. This year, we become....someone else. For long periods of real time. This year......I'll most probably piss some people off. Here's to an interesting year at home!!

Goddess bless me.

Jumper - Third Eye Blind

JUMPER

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand.
I would understand,
The angry boy, a bit too insane,
Icing over a secret pain,
You know you don't belong,
You're the first to fight, You're way too loud,
You're The flash of light, On a burial shroud,
I know something's wrong,
Well everyone I know has got a reason, To say, put the past away,

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, That you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand,
I would understand.

Well he's on the table,
And he's gone to code,
And I do not think anyone knows,
What they are doing here,
And your friends have left, You've been dismissed,
I never thought it would come to this,
And I, I want you to know,
Everyone's got to face down the demons,
Maybe today, We can put the past away,

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand,
I would understand,
I would understand...

Can you put the past away,

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,

I would understand...

Goodbye Doctor....

After having watched the tear-jerker if not a tad deus-ex-machina-esque (but then again it is Doctor Who ) Season 4 Finale of Doctor Who....

I have to say. I really liked David, cor you're a pretty one now aren't you? with just the right kind of spunk and hyperactiveness...but anyways......I really likedDavid and I have to say....season 4 is a really good send off...I mean, way to close(burn) that bridge! *wink*wink*

Sure he's got four more specials out next year, but it's not just the same isnit?

yea yea...Matt Smith's pretty too..but somehow he doesn't look like Doctor material....but then again, I haven't seen 'im in action........in anythin....me being from bloomin' SEA....not that it's bad, just not current...

Celebrate...

Okay...something has to be said for the way Malaysians celebrate our perayaan. I was sitting in a cab on the way to Subang airport and at the toll gate, there were these bunch of people giving out free drinks at the toll gate itself. Now is it just me...or is this kind of a common sight? Or at least....frequent. I think I've like read in the papers, many a time, of people, samaritans, giving out coffee or stuff like that at toll gates to 'wake' drivers up....no? Call it capitalism perhaps coz I mean, all these celebrations to a certain extent are capitalistic in nature....but I think it's quite cool and thoughtful....somehow I doubt I'd see it much in Taiwan....but then again...I don't know...

Gong Hei Fatt Choy!

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And Connor said....

"You complete and utter cockmonkey."

Ahh.....you gotta love the freakangels...

Freakangels rock!!

The Best Job in the World.....

http://www.islandreefjob.com/en/#/home

Is it? Most probably......~_^

So.....APPLY!!!

fortylove.tv

A friend of mine's involved in a behind-the-scenes kinda way......way cool idea for the digital age.....video postcards.....I wish I could do it too.....,perhaps in future with Mission Americana (now scheduled for Spring 2011) and Mission Britannica (scheduled for Fall/Winter 2011)

So in the meantime......check out fortylove.tv

Soul//Music

Have you ever come across music that, no matter what they're singing about, no matter how sad the lyrics, how melancholic the melody, it just puts a smile on your face? That takes your breath away? That makes you just want to jump up and shout and scream and run? Perhaps it's just wistful thinking, maybe it just my imagination....but I like to think of it as passion. The artist's passion for what he's doing, his music. He's putting his heart and soul into this and he's exhilarated. I like to think that it's his joy at being able to put this down on record. This music. His music. His passion. His conviction. His joy. His meaning to exist.

Or perhaps his thought and feeling at that precise moment. The views before his eyes, or their eyes as is the case of Taiwan's iconic band Mayday （五月天） for their album, God's Children Are All Dancing 《神的孩子都在跳舞》, which they recorded in a 'remote' studio up in the foothills of Mount Fuji. I mean, how can you not be filled with joy when you're playing to floor to ceiling glass windows opening out to Mother Nature in all her glory? But then again.....Mayday's music has always been about hope and heart......

Or perhaps it's music that comes out of tragedy? Music that does in itself sing of the exhilaration of being, alive. Like Andrew McMahon of Jack's Mannequin, formerly of Something Corporate. The Glass Passenger, Jack's Mannequin's latest studio album, was writing by Andrew post -leukemia....does that have anything to do with it? Actually when it comes to Andrew...I doubt it because just their debut album, Everything in Transit, alone......blew me away....

But for what ever reason, what ever else it is. This is music that feeds the soul. Gives one hope.

These are just some of the bands that make my soul sing......what's yours?

ps: mind the vid....it's the best audio track I could find.....

Sixteen Going on Seventeen

[Rolf:]
You wait, little girl, on an empty stage
For fate to turn the light on
Your life, little girl, is an empty page
That men will want to write on

[Liesl:]
To write on

[Rolf:]
You are sixteen going on seventeen
Baby, it's time to think
Better beware, be canny and careful
Baby, you're on the brink

You are sixteen going on seventeen
Fellows will fall in line
Eager young lads and rogues and cads
Will offer you food and wine

Totally unprepared are you
To face a world of men
Timid and shy and scared are you
Of things beyond your ken

You need someone older an wiser
Telling you what to do
I am seventeen going on eighteen
I'll take care of you

[Liesl:]
I am sixteen going on seventeen
I know that I'm naive
Fellows I meet may tell me I'm sweet
And willingly I believe

I am sixteen going on seventeen
Innocent as a rose
Bachelor dandies, drinkers of brandies
What do I know of those

Totally unprepared am I
To face a world of men
Timid and shy and scared am I
Of things beyond my ken

I need someone older and wiser
Telling me what to do
You are seventeen going on eighteen
I'll depend on you

Like Father Like Daughter - 有其父必有其女

What is it with daughters of famous directors? They always come out with these visually stunning works of art. Perhaps it's the constant exposure to daddy's works. Or perhaps the need to make a statement of one's own and step out from under daddy's shadow. Whatever it is, there's only one word for it. Stunning. Who am I talking about?
Sofia Coppola and Mika Ninagawa.

Sofia Coppola
Daughter of Godfather director Francis Ford...Rose to fame after directing The Virgin Suicides and Lost in Translation.....

Then came the visual candy that is Marie Antoinette....


Mika Ninagawa - 蜷川實花(Ninagawa Mika)
Daughter of famed Japanese theatre director Yukio Ninagawa....Rose to fame as a uber vibrant and stunningly vivid photographer.....

Then came her directorial debut with the visual feast that is Sakuran...

Sum of Worth

Another year has past. Another year wiser? Perhaps. Another year older, definitely.

It's been an.....amazing year filled with.....so many different things.
Experiences, sensations, feelings.....
Met a lot of different people and made just as many mistakes....
I've done stuff that I'm not proud of and things that I will treasure for a lifetime.
Made decisions that have been proven wrong and judgments....that unfortunately been proven right.
It's been a time to grow, reflect, look into one's self and try to find out what you really want and what is truly important.
It's been a tough year in some aspects and an easy one in others (a part of me is worried because it's mostly seemed to be quite easy.....oooeer...... :S)

Though...all in all.....it's been a very good year......Here's to another and many more to come.....

Take it away Frankie...

When I was seventeen
It was a very good year
It was a very good year for small town girls
And soft summer nights
Wed hide from the lights
On the village green
When I was seventeen

When I was twenty-one
It was a very good year
It was a very good year for city girls
Who lived up the stair
With all that perfumed hair
And it came undone
When I was twenty-one

When I was thirty-five
It was a very good year
It was a very good year for blue-blooded girls
Of independent means
Wed ride in limousines
Their chauffeurs would drive
When I was thirty-five

But now the days grow short
Im in the autumn of the year
And now I think of my life as vintage wine
>from fine old kegs
>from the brim to the dregs
And it poured sweet and clear
It was a very good year