Fly me to the Moon.....

Fly me to the moon,
And let me play among the stars.
Let me see what spring is like,
On jupiter and mars.

In other words, hold my hand,
In other words, darling kiss me.

Fill my heart with song,
And let me sing forever more,
You are all I long for,
All I worship and adore,

In other words, please be true,
In other words, I love you.

WHY??!!!!!!!!!!

Oh lawrd.....another NLD????? WHY??? Thank goodness I nipped this one in the bud.......now...if only I could drag the old feelings out to channel into the scene.........

Damn good compartmentalisation and my strong-rational-logical-am-able-to-be-head-over-heart spirit!!

Supportive

Okay....I can now.....not say.....that my mom isn't supportive anymore and is just fed up...coz if the woman is ready to put me through college again....in the UK, again!, no less....that kinda speaks for itself.....

Frankly.....I don't understand....I mean.....I do...but it's like....REALLY??!!!! But I get it. I suppose. I've already fulfilled part of the bargain. I actually finished something....important.....an education. Albeit it's only a diploma......but hey I finished it.



I suppose....she is proud of me.

Right?

Mr. Y

黄义达 - Mr. Y

词/曲: 黄义达

Mr. Y Mr. Y

Mr. Y Mr. Y 是否可以tell me why
Oh~Mr. Y怎样才算最纯的爱
Mr. Mr. Y 其实我一直很乖
只是找不到人来爱

叫我Mr. Mr.Y 我本人还算不赖
Mr. Mr.Y 我会给你给你很多的爱
叫我Mr.Y Y 我不会把你带坏
Mr.Mr.Y 不是不是Mr.坏.

有些爱是急不来
我们一步一步来
有些爱等感觉来
Mr. Y把你抱在胸怀
有些爱是很期待
有些爱就是无奈
有些爱不是伤害
Mr. Y让你明白什麼是爱
我们都爱都爱Mr. Mr. Y
我们都要都要Mr. Mr. Y
我们都爱都爱Mr. Mr. Y
我们都要都要Mr. Mr. Y

Mr. Y Mr. Y 是否可以tell me why
Oh~Mr. Y怎样才算最纯的爱
Mr. Mr. Y 其实我一直很乖
只是找不到人来爱

叫我Mr. Mr.Y 我本人还算不赖
Mr. Mr.Y 我会给你给你很多的爱
叫我Mr.Y Y 我不会把你带坏
Mr.Mr.Y 不是不是Mr.坏.

有些爱是急不来
我们一步一步来
有些爱

Soul Searching.....?

For the first time in my life....or perhaps not.....but for the first time that I can remember I want to go home to KL and do some soul searching......or perhaps just plain soul searching....

Perhaps it's the fact that I've been downloading US shows like crazy these past few weeks......or perhaps it's the city itself, tho I doubt it......but....lately, I've just been feeling this, disconnection with the city around me. Perhaps it's something telling me that this is not my home. Rarely have I ever felt this disconnected from the city around me. Perhaps only in Singapore towards the end of my stay there. Tho, I seriously feel that this city is not at fault. It's just me.

I suddenly can't see where I fit in here. or how. Yet there is so much here for me......or is there?

Being here.......has made me....Since I've been here.....I've had so many ideas for projects and things to do back home in KL.....it's almost like...where the f*ck were these ideas when I was back home? Perhaps it's that right now I have the time to cultivate these ideas, or perhaps this city is giving me all these inspirations?

I don't know. I suddenly feel this connection with western TV...again more than likely the affect of watching so many western TV shows lately....I have been lax in watching Taiwanese TV.....but how can I when the Ukrainian girls sit in front of the TV, hogging it while they do homework? The living room doesn't even feel like mine and more like theirs! It's like even if I do sit down, it's like I'm borrowing it from them or can only use it after they've gone to bed. Not exactly the kind of TV watching feeling I'd like to sit down to....especially after having my own TV for most of my overseas student life.......

Or perhaps all this just boils down to my insecurities. ChouStars didn't call me in for a interview, which is quite a blow to my ego. Perhaps it's just this revisiting of my insecurities in KL. I know I can act. I know I look good. But people don't see that. I'm not what they want. What they want are these gawd knows what kind of pretty face that can't act for peanuts. Why? Or is it that I'm not doing enough? I'll admit, that I don't promote myself enough. I don't whore myself out and go for every fucking audition out there. Should I? Even John Cho said that even if he went for auditions for things he didn't feel strongly about, he never ended up getting the parts anyways. Or does that sound like an excuse for me because hey, he's John Cho? And as much as I know you guys are being supportive, friends telling me to have faith and that I rock, doesn't really help. I do appreciate the encouragement, I really do.....but perhaps I'm just in my emo phase so please forgive me if I seem ungrateful.

If people don't give you work, make work for yourself. That's a rule I live by.....kind of, a rule I mean. I live by that. So perhaps the part of me that's emoing right now.....is frustrated that unlike when I'm at home in KL, here in Taipei, I'm powerless. And I haven't been powerless in a long time. I suppose it's a sobering experience for the soul. Let's it be knocked down a couple of notches. Or let's it be grateful for the people I have back home. The connections I've made, the people I rely on. My friends. My comrade in arms. My kindred spirits. Frankly I really don't know how we survive doing what we do. Perhaps it's our bourgeois background.......or perhaps it's just me. I love you all, you should know who you are.

XOXO........

在这里 - 現實

词/Ella 曲/义达

你在想什麼 能不能告诉我
你的眉头纠结成枷锁
能不能让我为你解开疑惑
爱你爱你爱你爱你 是我最开心的梦
想你想你想你想你想你 想得我不再像我
我在这里 我就站在这看著你
你的心里 藏著秘密 从来都不让我走进去
我好想你 我好想用力的爱你
封闭的心 没有缝隙
你永远不懂我在这里爱著你
你在想什麼 能不能告诉我
你的眉头纠结成枷锁
能不能让我为你解开疑惑
面对面的时候 我总是无法把你看清
背对背想远离你 却又不舍你一个人伤心
我在这里 我就站在这看著你
你的心里 藏著秘密 从来都不让我走进去
我好想你 我好想用力的爱你
封闭的心 没有缝隙
你永远不懂我在这里爱著你
我在这里 我就站在这看著你
你的心里 藏著秘密 从来都不让我走进去
我没关系 我只想用力的爱你
全心全力 不会放弃 你永远不用知道我爱你
因为你存在我心里 你不爱我还是爱著你

愛是自私的 - 完美幻想

作曲：YiDA
填詞：YiDA

我們都忘記 忘記什麼是開心
我們該學習 學習愛學習珍惜
秋天的空氣 總是讓我想起妳
今天的天氣 是不是你在哭泣
過去已過去 勇敢走下去
他並不是你
有些遺憾最每麗
我回到過去才發現才看見
原來自己愛的一直是你
我回到現在才發現
我們不知所措 可是已經來不及
愛需要勇氣 牽著他心卻在哪裡
我試著忘記自私愛到底
我回到過去才發現才看見
原來自己心理全都是你
我回到現在才明白
這份愛放不開 妳就是我的唯一
我真的不懂 我試著去愛他到底
才一直相信 已把你忘記


過去已過去 勇敢走下去
他並不是你
有些遺憾最美麗
我回到過去才發現才看見
原來自己愛的一直是你
我回到現在才發現
我們不知所措 可是已經來不及
愛需要勇氣 牽著他心卻想著你
我試著忘記 自私愛到底
我回到過去才發現才看見
原來自己心理全都是你
我回到現在才明白
這份愛放不開 妳就是我的唯一
我真的不懂 我試著去愛他到底
才一直相信 已把你忘記
現在的我才開始懂的愛是自私的

You Were There - 希望

You Were There
作曲：YiDA
填詞：YiDA

愛不需要理由
為什麼我會懂
我的心正在痛
那是因為我真的愛過

一轉眼十年後
我依然是寂寞
那是因為心理面
永遠都有一個缺口

我的愛　你懂不懂
這幾年我是怎麼過
我的愛　你懂不懂
有好多話想對你說
我的愛　你懂不懂
我需要你任何時候

我的愛　你懂不懂

Coz u were there Coz u were there
我的愛　我沒放開　我在等待
Coz u were there Coz u were there
我的愛　你別放開　等我回來

愛不需要理由
我愛了十年了
當初為什麼
我把她讓給她前男友

我該不該把握
該不該到她家門口
這問題想了好久
其實答案在這一秒鐘

Coz u were there~ Ya there~
我的愛我沒放開
我一直一直在等待

Coz u were there~ Ya there~
我的愛你別放開
有一天我們再相愛

Coz u were there~ Ya there~
我的愛我沒放開
我一直一直在等待

Coz u were there~ Ya there~
我們都不再放開
我們永遠都不分開
Coz u were there~

Hope..

They didn't call...

I can't say that I'm not disappointment.....

Wha The...

I've just had to login to Facebook.......that's scary......

Acquisition

In other more narcissistic news......I've finally landed myself a much wanted copy of Il Jun Kee's semi latest drama - 狗與狼的時間 （Time Between Dog and Wolf）. Woohoo! Much rabid fangirlism ensues...

On top of that I've managed to purchase my Serena Van Der Woodsen dress from Juicy Couture.....oh I rue the day you said I looked like Blake Lively, Nick! ; P That dress cost me a pretty penny.....but it's nice tho.......very S.....


XOXO ; ]

quarterlife

Well....quite poetic isn't it.....that I stumble upon quarterlife on my 25th birthday....

Check it out. I think it rocks.....so far..and I'm only on part 3.......

Things like this and LG15 only go on to inspire me......of course after Mien pointed out of FB that any content posted on FB becomes thier property thereafter....makes you wonder...make me wonders anyways......was tempted to launch my own web series, some day, on your average vid platform, including perhaps even the quarterlife network.....but thankfully we have a local alternative...popteevee.....go check em out if you haven't already, sure they're not at user gen-ed as YouTube...but hey these are guys we know, I'm sure they'd respect our property rights....

It wasn't Me

I knew, it wasn't.......


I swear I knew........

Yummy Speeches....

Beauty, Brains and Power; What more can a girl ask for?

Jonathan Favreau, the new White House Director of Speechwriting.

27 and single.......we have eight years....... ^_~