Dark

It's 5.53 pm and it's pitch black outside. I know that it gets dark sooner in autumn but this is ridiculous. Especially coz Taipei doesn't seem to get the other autumn side effect---COLD WEATHER! I go out and it's like bloody KL, perhaps on a cooler day. It's not even Genting temperature yet!

How annoying. ; P

In other news.....I've just signed up to attend a talk regarding the tv industry here. Eddie Peng's going to be there.......yippie!

Hehe.......beware rabid fan girl.

Tho I have been less rabid nowadays........

This is our Youth

Alexa Chung.

The current UK 'it' girl. Young, 24, British Chinese, but doesn't look a lick of Asian. Successful TV presenter, fashion icon darling with a sweet rocker boyfriend to boot. Oh, the envy.

She's pissed off Pan!c at the Disco and lived to tell about it. What can't this girl do?

After initially finding out about this new british media darling, I swear, I had another episode of "gawd why was I born Malaysian?!" aka a serious case of envy. But then if life gives you lemons.....and also of course I read this article, published by UK's The Daily Telegraph. And I thoroughly changed my mind.

Though a part of me wonder what exactly was the reporter getting at writing this? Sure it does a wonderful job of covering Alexa and it's focus is undoubtedly more on Alexa as a fashion icon and personality. But does anyone else detect a slight sarky (am I even using the word correctly?) remark on Alexa's, and I suppose by extension or association today's youths', lack of concern for the state of the world today.

Like Alexa, I for one will admit to a lack of newpaper reading. Trust me, if it weren't because I had to read newspaper articles for class, I wouldn't even know we were in a near global recession....or is it just plain global now?....but still, the lack of concern is disconcerting.

I mean, can you imagine an entire generation of followers? Of people who don't know what's going on and just follow the crowd? Well, of course, not reading the papers doesn't mean that you'll be a folower...that's just me shooting my mouth off. But I mean really...even if you don't know how a reccession will affect lil' ol' you, and frankly I don't but I don't want anyone out there writing me a comment and telling me..I'll find out on my own thank you very much....but anyways....even if you don't exactly see how that'll affect you or if it's any concern of yours..should you...oh I don't know...perhaps even venture to find out? I know I will.......I really should finish my copy of Freakonomics.......

I don't know....perhaps I'm just ranting...but shouldn't the youth of today take charge of their own future or something? Not that of course there aren't youths doing that already....I've got tons of young activist friends at home. But I mean......how many of us just don't give a damn? A helluva lot I'm wagering.....and isn't that some cause of concern? That coupled with increased drinking and promiscuity it just sounds like the whole world's going to hell....or the Dark Ages......okay, perhaps the Dark Ages are a bit over dramatic.....the......oh lord, I don't even know my ages.....but you know what I mean...I hope. I mean, I'm sure it'll all be fun and all, but it's humanity and the earth of a time limit? I mean, if not enough of us know what do to soon......could we be reduced to a City of Ember?

Right, I'm really speakin out of my arse there......but you know what I mean, right?

Oh and frankly I don't think she'll all that pretty...in the same style category lookswise.....she's got nothing on Shannyn Sossamon.

No Day But Today.....

Finale B - Rent the Musical

MARK
There Is No Future - There Is No Past

ROGER
Thank God This Moments Not The Last

MIMI & ROGER
There's Only Us
There's Only This
Forget Regret Or Life Is Yours To Miss

ALL
No Other Road No Other Way
No Day But Today

WOMEN
I Can't Control

My Destiny

I Trust My Soul

My Only Goal
Is Just To Be

Without You
The Hand Gropes
The Ear Hears
The Pulse Beats
Life Goes On
But I'm Gone
Cause I Die
Without You
I Die Without You
I Die Without You
I Die Without You
I Die Without You
I Die Without You

ALL
No Day But Today

MEN
Will I Lose My Dignity
Will Someone Care
Will I Wake Tomorrow
From This Nightmare

There's Only Now
There's Only Here
Give In To Love
Or Live In Fear
No Other Path
No Other Way
No Day But Today

No Day But Today
No Day But Today
No Day But Today
No Day But Today
No Day But Today

All
No Day But Today

Fall

Fall - Something Corporate



i close my eyes
thought i was lost but i was stranded
i go outside
to my surprise the sky had landed
i thought it made more sense
if i could only keep you guessing
i was a fool to think
that i should stop you from undressing
now i'm believing all the words you say
that i can't say back to you
to you

so i fall
i don't wanna feel this small
you know i just can't handle this
handle this at all
and i'll just fall
i let my heartbeat drop
i falter as the music stops
and you watch me as stall
and wonder when i fall

i kiss your neck
i feel you breathing on my shoulder
still i'm perfect
it must be you cause now it's over
i was so close
that was the most that i have ever been through
now old cassettes and cigarettes
will be the ones to save you
how can you ask for me to stay
when all you ever do is go?
just go

and so i fall
i don't wanna feel this small
you know i just can't handle this
handle this at all
and so i fall
i let my heartbeat drop
i falter as the music stops
and you watch me as i stall
and wonder when i..

go on
you've kept me waiting
go on
and watch me as i fall
i don't wanna feel this small
you know i just can't handle this
handle this at all
and so i fall
i let my heartbeat drop
i falter as the music stops
and you watch me as i stall
and wonder when i..

Prudence

Has anyone ever noticed that tho it's perfectly fine to say, my 'old man' but absolutely a faux pas to say, my 'old woman', when it comes to our parents?

Well in the english language anyways.....I mean, gender differential age sensitivity aside...it just sounds plain wrong.........you know what I mean?

When I grow old....

....I want to age like.......

Carrie Bradshaw.

Save me....

OMG...I just spent 3k TWD on shoes...that's roughly RM300.......I'm turning into a girlie girl! Help! I just narrowly escaped buying a pair of boots too.....they made my knees look tiny.....a good thing.......argh!!!

Someone save my wallet from myself!

5 Takes : My Way

Oh my gawd! While doing some online surfing and formulating an idea for Mission Americana and post discovery of lonelygirl15.....I stumbled upon the most...rad idea........can you just imagine a guerrilla filmmaking styled travel show, showing the v-logs of a group of friends travelling or backpacking through wherever? kinda like 5 takes.....only....REAL(okay.....I mean 5 Takes is real too, so perhaps the word I'm looking for is less budget).....as in no pro production team and just RAW!? I mean, screw TV right? If they don't want me.... ; P

Tho....I'm sure it's not the most original idea.....and I mean, who could afford to do something like this?? Where would I even begin to get the funding in KL for a project like this? The project in itself could go two ways........completely truth and factual or lonelygirl15 fiction...or perhaps a mixture of both.......

Now, wait what is Mission Americana? Well....truth be told, it's just an idea at the moment, but it's basically the sister of Mission Britannica, which is my major England and Ireland travel experience thingy.....right now it's basically all the things I wanna see and do in the UK(Britanicca) and the US(Americana) all jumbled into one and somehow trying to find a way to make it all fit. Stuff I wanna do in these places right now include and are in no way exhaustive are......

• Haggis Tour of Scotland to overnight in a castle!
• Shamrock Tour of Ireland to experience the Eire
• 2-3 week course at Oideas Gael to study Gaelic and learn 'in depth' about Irish culture
• Sacred Journeys tour of England to get in touch with me spirituality
• Various hodge podge of activities in and around good ol' London, including of course VARIOUS Walking London Tours, West End shows
  
• Trip to Blackpool , perhaps even Notthingham, Stratford-upon-Avon, and isn't there a huge terrarium somewhere with a rainforest in it? Of course...how could I have forgotten...
• Visit to the Eden Project
  
• Experience New Orleans Mardi Gras
• 1 week Pilobolos Summer Workshop
• 2 week Performing Artists Cultural Visitors Program at the Kennedy Center
• 2 week seminar at Arcosanti
• In NY itself : Nuyorican Poets Cafe, Dr. Sketychy's Anti Art Class, burlesque class, Coney Island Side Show School, not mention watch loads of Broadway
• Vegas
• 1-2 weeks in Orlando, Disney World ppl!
• 1-2 weeks in California...heaven knows to do what else, but the theme parks are defo on the agenda
  

Bottom line of course...all of what I wanna do, is gonna cost a lot of money.....and of course, may not interest other people.....true, certain aspects of these trips are totally for self fulfillment, but I mean, there are aspects that others might like right? Partying at Mardi Gras in New Orleans, DisneyWolrd, theme parks??

The only reason that there's no Mission Europa right now, is coz I'm hopin' yo join Jeff and the boys on their Eurotrip next autumn, but if I ain't got the funds fer that when the time comes, then a definite planning for Mission Europa will definitely go underway!! Hehehe.....

Gosh, if I ever get any of these trips off the ground....it'll be such a blast.....

Any takers?

internet tv

Right....okay..so watching a wee bit too much internet tv...mainly from the US...will be leaving me with a wee bit of a Valley Girl accent.....

Right so.....I've been like online virtually the whole day checking out webisodes on the internet right...and I've stumbled onto some real jems.....see..me and my friedns back home have toyed with the idea of doing like lots of online media stuff...Malik with his post Joanne Kam revue show/SNL idea and David C with his no-holds-barred zine idea.....and well...lil'o me who gets easily inspired by watching everything and anything I get my peepers on....tho usually on more fanfic like endeavours..

But anywhos....on my quest today, I came across the whole lonelygirl15 phenom....and I find it really really intriguing...... of course, viewing it all now in like ultra retrospect and the complete knowledge that is it a 'show' more than likely detracts from it's impact. But for 'research's sake, I'm planning to follow the current lonelygirl15 series - lonelygirl15:the resistance. just to feel the effects........

Aside from that I'm totally into like imagining a phenom like that's impact on the Malaysian TV industry....I can't wait to tell Boss!!!

I mean, Malaysian media is already doing stuff like Media Prima's CatchUp TV and also Gua.com.my's online shows. With the lack(or lax) of censorship on the web in Malaysia, online would be the way to go no? I mean, imagine the stories you could tell? Already before discovering lonelygirl15. I had wanted to do a very teen and internet based TV show.....adding a internet dimension to it...would only add to the.....mythology? or coherence of the show's universe or whatever you call it......of course...right now, it's just me shooting my mouth off and not being able to do anything much about it concretely since I really envisioning doing this in KL and all my resources are there anyways......

Of course this strong desire to do something back home, kind of detracts from my vision of my future here in Taiwan.....all Laws of Attraction and stuff like that.....I mean, I can totally and almost abso-concre-lutely envisioning taking this project off the ground....I mean, it'd just be so easy....tho of course, the hardest part would be the writing...it would need to be so incredibly tight! I am an absolute believe in strong scripts not to mention good art direction......

Oh..the possibilities!!!!!!! But concentrate.....I need to concentrate on the task at hand!!! That's one of my problems.....I daydream alot......so many ideas......but I don't know how to execute them!!!


Now for those of you who don't know what lonelygirl15 is......check it:
start here : http://www.lg15.com/lonelygirl15/?p=69
on Wikipedia : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lonelygirl15
on Encyclopedia Dramatica : http://www.encyclopediadramatica.com/index.php/Lonelygirl15
*warning Enclyclopedia Dramatica is not work or kid friendly!!! But in my net tv show research...I think it's a gem!!! eugene......i think you'd like this site...... ; ]

It has began.....

And it begins again......