Helloooooo Escapism....

Aaaannnd we're back!

It's Fall!! It's Fall!!! aka start of the new US primetime TV season....

Back are all shows, such as my faves - Criminal Minds, Stargate : Universe, Castle, Fringe and many more.... and welcome plethora of new shows like Nikita, Lost Girl, Hawaii Five-0 and hope you guys make it.

And GOODBYE AND GOOD RIDDANCE to some of the swill I had to partake in while you guys were gone...... as much as I have come to enjoy some of you.... there's just no replacing these big guns who are into their Nth seasons....tho I really do hope Haven makes it to another season... cause I wanna ogle at Eric Balfour long time....

Heellloooo good TV programing....

Blegh......

Okay... I really need to just start blogging about my life and stop trying to try and make every blooy post kononnya 'thought-provoking'. Coz thought-provoking posts usually amounts to being saved-as-drafts, trying to do lots of research and trying to sound smart.... which of course means delays and then interest dies down...and being self-deprecating me, usually back fires....

So here's to a future of a peek in a life posts and more useless rubbish and online life-diarrhea!

YAY to to the internet, the narcissists heaven!

XOXO, H

So a member of the 'family' is leaving us soon.....

But nothing morbid...she's leaving for studies and will actually be back in a year or so.....

I feel for her boyfriend, my friend, tho..... but they're going to LDR it...

I say... Gambatte!!! You guys can do it!!! I know it!! I'm expecting to curtail my kids from spending too much time at you-two's house so they won't become pot heads!!! Hehehehe....

I love them both to death and they are like the second cutest couple I know... Sorrylah... Cutest couple award goes to TW and RR.. Coz I mean, she's cute as a button and he's got such cute big eyes!!! Their babies are going to be so cute!!!!

We had a surprise farewell party for H today... So cool. People were all arriving with food accompanied by Hari Raya tunes... was like a big-family-balik-kampung-raya gathering, best giler. H was like crying when we surprised her.... Even though she kinda saw it coming. Don't cry babe! We were all there for you!!! And we'll miss you!!!

But we wish you all the best in Boston, love!!!

XOXO, H.

Missing

A few days ago... I received an sms saying that my friend had kind of gone missing. No one had heard from her in 9 hours. Her phone was dead. Her husband was very worried. It was akin to sending out a BOLO. Fortunately, she has since been found, safe and sound.

At the time, I was being a bridesmaid and 子妹 for my friend's wedding and running on roughly 2 hours of sleep. I didn't really give it much thought, only moments between driving from locations and between tasks. But my first reaction though, was still :

"No, this can't be happening. Not her. This doesn't happen to me."

That perennial, "This can't be happening."

I really can't imagine bad things happening to my freinds. People that I am close to. Heck, I'm even not that close to her. What would have I gone through if it did happen to my chosen few?

You never really imagine that things like this happen to the people around you. Okay, snatch theft, minor car altercations, robbery, arrested for ISA protests, fine, I can deal with. But the idea of having these people missing entirely from my life, no matter how small their placement is alien. It really is like missing a piece of your world. Even if they've moved away to another country and you don't hear from them for ages, they are still...there. In their place in your little minds' eye. But having them go missing.....

I've always been a strong believer of the saying, Friends are the family you make for yourself. Whether it's because I come from a really small immediate family, I don't know. But yes, my friends are my family. They are really important to me. I can't imagine not having them in any part of my world.

We all read stories about people going missing, getting raped, murdered, killed. But we have never ever imagined that these things will happen to us, to the people around us. A part of me hopes to keep it that way.

I guess, what perhaps I am trying to say in my roundabout way is that.....through this minor brush with loss, I find that I really cannot do without my friends, no matter how rarely I see you.

So please.....

Be safe.

And let me know if you need me, I'm just a phone call away.

Off Season

Right, so now it's summer in the northern hemisphere and most of TV Land is on break til the start of the new television season this Fall. So what is there for the TV addict in me to look forward to every week? Very little would be the answer.

But it's not like there isn't anything for me to watch. If only I was following Psych or Eureka then I might be contented. This summer's new offerings seem a bit lackluster and not quite there, or at least the ones that have caught my eyes anyways.

Pretty Little Liars
Based on a series of YA books, it's premise seemed promising, reminds one of a teenaged Desperate Housewives. Everyone has secrets but what happens when the one person who knows them all dies, yet is still able to threaten to expose it all. For what purpose? Though each episode is slightly intriguing, why is A still haunting these Pretty Little Liars? The reason for all of A's threats isn't really readily known, or if it is it escapes me at this moment.

I swear if it weren't for some of the clothes and the eye candies, I wouldn't waste my time on this show. And I guess I have to admit I am curious about what happens next. But this sure can't be compared to it's Desperate Housewives. Oh and how A became Queen Bee I cannot understand, coz I sure as heck don't think she's pretty enough....

The Gates
Wow, yet another show about a gated community with a shadowy underbelly. This time it's really shadowy, the community living in The Gates are of the supernatural persuasion... Vampires, werewolves, witches as well as succubi thrown in for good measure.

I have to say I love stories about seemingly perfect communities - Cape Wrath, Stepford Wives love love love! And I do have a penchant for supernaturals living in plain sight - Night World, Charmed. So a combination of both would be a goddess-sent no? Not quite. I don't know what it is, bad writing? Slightly bad plotting? It just lacks a certain something.

Some of the supernaturals are intriguing, I particularly enjoy the ones that aren't as obvious like that policewoman whose name escapes me, I'll enjoy trying to figure out what she is.

But recent episodes are improving, when Dylan Radcliff let the cat out of the bag, I swear I breath a sigh of relief. In my opinion, the only way your police chief can fully help you is for him to know who and what you are. Thank you for that whichever writer did it! There'd be too many questions and it'll come to a point of being too glaringly obvious to ignore.

Haven
The latest of the summer offering, just into it's third episode. A touch of Fringe and set in town reminiscent of the recently axed Happy Town, based on the Stephen King novel, The Colorado Kid.

What I've seen so far is extreme intriguing but I'm not really sure if it'll keep me coming back for more. I don't really feel much for their lead protagonist but I love her stoic 'side-kick/love interest'. And he might be the only reason I'd continue to watch the series. The arc is unfolding itself rather slowly. But has a lot of potential plus Stephen King's gotta count for something....

Persons Unknown
Now this is a series I can really sink my teeth into. It's got that whole WTF Lost quality to it coupled with a real seemingly solvable mystery/conspiracy theory behind it. A bunch of strangers from all walks of life stranded in a ghost town in the middle of no where with nothing to eat but Chinese food and they are subjected to random tests at random times. Then there's people on the outside trying to figure out what happened to them...... intrigue, politics, mystery....quite a good package this. But I can't really seeing it lasting more than one season though. But then, people might have said the same thing about Lost.....

We Are Young!

We are young, We are strong! We are free!

And it rain rain rain rains......

Is it really necessary?
Every single day
You're making me more ordinary
In every possible way

This ordinary mind is broken
You did it and you don't even know
You're leaving me with words unspoken
You better get back because I'm ready for

More than this whatever it is
Baby, I hate days like this
Caught in a trap I can't look back
Baby, I hate days like this

Caught in a trap, I can't look back
Baby I hate days like this

When it rain and rain and rain and rain
When it rain and rain and rain and rain

More than this
Baby, I hate days like

Trying to be ordinary
Was it me who was the fool?
Thought you found the man you wanted
'til you turn him into something new

Well even if our minds are broken
There's something that I need you to know
It's nothing like the life we wanted
You better move on cause I'm ready for

More than this whatever it is
Baby, I hate days like this
Caught in a trap, I can't look back
Baby, I hate days like this

Caught in a trap, I cant look back
Baby I hate days like this

I'm not angry
Don't know what to do
After all the years that I spent with you
I can't blame you for the things you say
I was using you just to hide away

More than this
Whatever it is
Baby, I hate days like this
Caught in a trap
I can't look back
Baby I hate days like this

When it rain, rain, rains
It rain, rain, rains
More than this...
Baby I hate days like this

Fallen

I don't know why. But I suddenly feel like an angel who's just got thier wings cut and is suddenly crashing down to Earth. Unable to fly, unable to dream.

Haunted by memories and images of another plain. One that doesn't exist in human reality.

Tethered to a reality that is fast becoming harsh and unforgiving. Unable to find solace in the usual places.

Something feels missing. And the memory of it keeps gnawing.

Is this what humans call depression?

I sometimes wish I was make-believe. A character is someone else's fiction. I want to see the world, the universe, all the alternate dimensions.

Perhaps that is why it pains me sometimes to watch Doctor Who. The possibilities it presents and the harsh reality that none of it could exist on this plain.

Alas, but to dream.

To fly.

It's ALIVE!!

And hopefully kicking!

After joining the ever growing league of micro-blog we call Twitter. I think it's high time I rejoined the good old tradition blog set again. Coz sometimes, 140 characters just ain't enough.

So much has changed since I last blogged some-what consistently......come to think of it, when was that really??? HAHAHA....

I'll need to review my own blog archive to really determine that.....

The landscape of my friendships changed quite dramatically I'd say.....budding friendships back when I still blogged have blossomed into full -on "you sure we've only known each other for a year?", so many friends have gotten married and are getting married.....and life has moved on.

But whatever it is....full speed ahead and no looking back!!

Onwards ho!!

Alyah - Realiti Dewi

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